This image was taken on a train journey from Pune to Lonavala in June. Well, it’s been exactly three months, and I can feel how far I have come in my healing journey, yet, still not far enough.

After each journey you change a little bit. You find a little more of yourself, but only if that’s what you pay attention to. I know not every travel changes you or should I say not everyone changes after travelling. Some only experience places as a tourist and go back to being exactly who they were and live exactly how they had been living.

However, for some every journey is different, even the one to their work.

Warning:

If you pay too much attention to it, you may end up causing a little bit of discomfort for yourself by redirecting your mind to questioning everything you’re or you’ve been doing. Your mind will make you feel as if you are extremely behind than everyone else, that you have done nothing so far! It will make you believe somehow that you have no purpose and no passion. It’s the worst position to be in, or maybe the best!

Losing & Finding

We generally know that our purpose is to be better than yesterday. Hobbies are part of the purpose and are to enjoy life from time to time. Managing work, home, life, relationships – all of it are part of it.

But passion, which somewhat should be a purpose driven thing/asset, is a very personal entity, separate from worldly pleasures & sorrows.

Passion is like faith, belief, praying and meditation. No one else needs to know about it, because no one else will be able to understand it but you.

And maybe it often changes, based on circumstances. Sometimes, you can run for almost a year, and still feel behind in finding one. Sometimes it’s hard to fathom the purpose, the passion, and the path.

Flow

Going with the flow does seem the right way to find it, but the flow can go in many directions if actions are missing. Without a purpose, passion just flows into nothingness where it will ultimately become a dried up, abandoned well in a dense forest.

Then again, when you’re observing that well drying up, you desperately try to figure out a purpose and in the process, either you lose a sense of self, hurt people around you, self-sabotage or the miraculous thing called time brings you to justice. That justice being not seeking validation from anyone but only a higher power or the Universe.

When that validation doesn’t feel like it’s happening, you become restless as your passion has no purpose, and hence, you too become a dead-end!

In both cases, life is flowing, time is moving forward, and you feel you’re behind both. Finally, you leave it. You leave the quest of finding a purpose meanwhile your passion too, suffers another halt.

But the real question to ponder on; is this the end of the quest or the beginning?